Monday, April 28, 2014

Easter Without Hazel

BitterSweet.

Bitter: Because she's not here to celebrate with us.
Sweet: Because someday I know she will be.

Her place at the table

Ruby misses her little sister

My five little bunnies

Someday we'll come to this exact spot and have our Hazel back.  Does she see us missing her?

Friday, April 18, 2014

Sunday Will Come

Today is Good Friday. I didn't realize this last night, when I was hitting another low as I continue to grieve my daughter's death. But today I made this connection between the bitterness I experienced last night and the signficance of today being Good Friday. A fellow grieving mother sent me this video today. It's a good reminder for all of us. No matter how black our Fridays are, Sunday will come. Beautiful words don't erase all the pain, but they help dull it.


Friday, April 4, 2014

Flashback

One of my sorrows at Hazel's passing is the fact that the kids will never get to see their baby sister wrapped up in the blanket that they worked so hard to help me make.

Below I am copying a post from my homeschooling blog about the day we started working on Hazel's blanket.

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From 11-10-2013

Baby #5 will be joining us in just 11 weeks or so.  The kids are very excited.  We've done a lot of talking about Baby Hazel and how she'll fit into our hearts and our home.

I thought that one good way of involving the kids in the preparation for her arrival would be to have them help me make a blanket for her.  So I chose to do a patchwork blanket this time around, allowing the kids to help me piece the squares together.

They helped pick the fabric and yarn, they helped me wash the squares and then iron them. They chose the pattern for the blocks (I bought them pre-cut to save some time and effort) and then they helped sew them together!





Confession: Some of their sewing made for very uneven rows. I had to take a few of them apart and redo them on the machine. But I'm sure Hazel will still feel their love when she's wrapped up in it!

I'll post a final picture when it's done.  Give me a few weeks!